Orbital

Orbital by Sherif Vuich with reading via youtube šŸ™‚

You’re right. You will likely never see me again. Don’t cry.

This physical world is fleeting, but although I will never be

part of yours, I will always exist as a part of you, a reminder

of what I accessed within you. Every time a rain drop splashes

on your head. Every time a gentle breeze caresses your swollen

cheeks. Every time you feel the slender silky curves of a beautiful

woman’sĀ waist and the taste of those lips. I willĀ be here. I’m no

longer a person you can see anymore.Ā My memory Ā haunts you,

but my gift to you is eternal,Ā and will never leave you. InĀ a parallel

universe, unmanifested, and waiting for your departure, you will find

me and you will be givenĀ another simulation with different variations.

InfiniteĀ stars await and will guide you to your own light, no matter how

stubborn you remain in your unperturbed orbital. Stuck in circlesĀ making

the same mistakes and wondering why nothing has changed, you will

inevitably learn and be granted permission to leave.Ā Each moment spent

away from me is a moment you spent obsessing over ‘me.’Ā Missing out

on we in different forms. Ā You may failĀ time and time again, stuck revolving

around othersĀ instead ofĀ revolving around yourself, not ascending, but

oscillatingĀ in self-induced sea sickness, but go to her. She will helpĀ you

feel me again– a medium. Real-eyes that we are the same person– She,

you, and I. You choose to have this conversation with me because you haven’t

felt my presence strong enough in her, anyone else, and even yourself, but

neither of us will ever waver as each guide’s presence becomes more and more

difficultĀ to for-get.Ā Our scent, our laughs, our stories, our interests, our gift to you,

will be wrapped conveniently around your heart, so open your eyes, feel

the beat I reminded you of, and don’t let your mind get the best of you

with herĀ like you allowed it to with me. Do not for-get me, but for-give

yourself. Make right each day with or without us both, because I will

be hereĀ for-giving you every step away until we meet again one day.

Irregardless or mine, her’s, or anyone else’s assistance, you choose how long

you stay in your orbital. Ā In-joy this orbit, because it won’t be long until

you’re onto your next.

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12 thoughts on “Orbital

  1. This brought tears to my eyes because I have experienced this loss and have had this discussion with her. It’s like you have opened my mind and accessed the same conversation. You are right, of course, there is happiness within the walls of this work, a clarity bestowed from a voice familiar to you – a gift of the promise of eternal love. The image of orbiting is perfect because that is what this life is. We orbit day to day, repeating the same mistakes, living the same life, waking, eating, sleeping, dreaming and no matter whose arms we find ourselves in, at the end of the day, there is no way to replace true love nor the soul we have connected with. Eventually, we all leave this orbit and find ourselves in another plane of existence where we will orbit on another level. I love the reading, too, by the way – it adds so much ‘voice’ to an already great, deep piece of work. And sadness, is closely connected to happiness so it is only fitting that we hear it in your words. Great writing, my friend. I can see why you would call this your best poem because it is directly from the heart and soul.

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    1. Thank you so much!! I was actually wondering how you would react to it, and was slightly worried it might’ve made you feel down. And thats exactly right, we are in this orbit running in circles and making the same mistakes, until we are on our next in the afterlife, or even each new day is a new orbit.

      So the poem was written from the perspective of what I’d like to think my Japanese ex-gf would say to me if I didn’t burn bridges to the point where we would never speak again. I’ve mentioned it a lot on here, but was by far the happiest year of my life. She was incredible, but towards the end I became to dependent on her for my own happiness, instead of deriving it internally, and that caused our really horrible breakup.

      I knew this after our breakup, but I kept on desperately looking for a girl to fill the void, and of course this yielded similar results, although I didn’t date any seriously.

      I’d like to think that this poem is what she would say to me regarding my own happiness and my future romantic pursuits. To manifest inner love while still on my orbit instead of continuing on the same one with the same attitude of, ‘oh I’ll be happy once I get a gf.’ The poem was inspired by a movie called ‘The discovery’ on Netflix. As soon as I finished the movie I wrote this poem.

      And thank you again, it definitely did come from the heart and soul.

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      1. That’s an amazing story. It takes a lot of courage to step out and admit to oneself that there is a need for inner change. Love and happiness should not be garnered solely from the relationship. It should be present in the individual and the relationship should enhance that love and happiness because it is shared.

        I hope your inner strength takes you out of that old orbit while you are still in this life. We are ultimately responsible for our own happiness and contentment. If we find someone to share that with, then that’s a bonus.

        You are most welcome!

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      2. I have definitely been enjoying my new orbit. The process started last year, and my inner relationship has been improving a lot. Really looking forward to when I get another shot at love, but am not impatient or dependent on it like I used to.

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